Letting go of what I thought was real

After over three years of recovery from my accident, I have made enough progress to start to write publicly about my experiences. I guess I used to feel as if this period in my life was a giant problem, a flaw, a blemish on my life/career but now I have come to realize that it is the stepping stone that will carry me to the next part of the journey in my life. For those of you who are unfamiliar with my story, I fell in 2007 during a dance performance and broke my back...see NY Times article www.nytimes.com/2007/06/02/arts/dance/02stre.html?_r=1. My diagnosis was a crushed vertebrae and a dissembling of the facet joints that surrounded the fracture. The neurosurgeon's solution was to fuse my spine.



I remember thinking after I was released from the hospital I would begin a blog that would help me chart my progress particularly inspired by the idea that I had few resources or other examples to rely on for my recovery. However that inspiration to write the blog was dishevelled by evenings spent weeping about my fallen dance career, days spent wandering around NYC in a backbrace wondering what I would do next, and hours spent going from doctors office, to acupunture office, to physical therapists office, to pshycotherapists office.....and so on.


However in the last year I have come to realize that my story even though it may not be current can still reach out to people who might be suffering from a similar experience or quite simply the weight of greif, mortality, and the aging body. In addition I would love to share with others going through a trauma or tragedy how I found relief through knowledge, personal reflection, and awareness. All in hopes that I will continue to grow and expand my physical, mental, spiritual, and human potential by learning other folks stories as well.